The tears just keep on coming. Everytime I stop to think, a teardrop falls from each of my eyes. My heart hurts. I do not know why; it is not the one that sees the thoughts, it is not the one that thinks the thoughts... Yet it is the one that feels the pain.
I do not want to think, yet it is all I can do. I want to stop crying, yet my will fails me and the tears seems not to cease. Like a waterfall, they fall freely from my eyes.
I have decided not to give up. I have decided this with my thoughts. My heart wants to give up from all the pain, yet I also know that it will have a harder time bearing the pain of finally giving up. What to do… What to do… Dream and be happy. Such an easy thing to say, yet a very hard thing to do. The spirit is willing, the heart is too. But my eyes... will it have enough tears to shed for the heart that hurts?
Giving up, such an easy thing to do… It might be painful at first… but what does it bring me? More time to fully enjoy life? Maybe. More time to look ahead and be happy? Maybe.
What if I don't? there is pain, until the time he realizes that he loves me too, definitely. But what if he doesn’t realize it? I cannot bear to even think that. I can, but I won't. It hurts too much. I will wait.
He will love me too. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe the next day. I do not know exactly when. But I will wait. And when he comes to me… the tears will finally cease.
But until then, let my tears fall freely… for they dampen the pain that my heart feels each time it feels like giving up.
Saturday, September 05, 2009
Drama Episode 1 by Anonymous
Ang sad kasi...
I have decided. I will not get over you. I may be in love with you, it might be unrequited, but I will not get over you. I will wait for the time when you finally see me. I will wait for the time when you cease to care what others think. I will wait for the time when you cease to see everything else but me. I will wait.
I may not show you how I feel now. But that is just my pride. Show me that you love me too, and I will show you how far my love can go.
Right now, I have no claim to you. Right now, all I can do is wait by the side and hope that you notice through all the seemingly innocent gestures that I do care for you. I may seem like simply a friend, but I keep hoping that you see more in me. I keep hoping that I'll be your exception. I keep hoping that you finally see that I am the love of your life, as you are mine.
When that time will be… I do not now. All I can do is wait, hope… and dream that that time comes soon. I will wait. I will not demand. I will wait. I will watch by the sidelines. I will watch the way you treat me, as if I am nothing more than a simple friend, a younger sister maybe. I will wait. I will hope. As long as I breathe, I will try my hardest not to lose hope. I will watch you fall.. Maybe for another… even as I am hoping that I am that "another". I will wait. I will wait till the time that you realize that you love me too and that I am your partner. I will wait. Because I love you, I will wait. Because I love you, I will try not to lose hope in you. I will wait.
I hope that you don’t make me wait too long. Because as I am waiting, I am hurting. I will wait for the time when you could heal the pain you caused and wipe the tears that you caused to fall. As I am writing these, I am hoping and wishing in my heart of hearts that right now, at this very moment… the time that I am waiting for is starting.
I have decided. I will not get over you. I may be in love with you, it might be unrequited, but I will not get over you. I will wait for the time when you finally see me. I will wait for the time when you cease to care what others think. I will wait for the time when you cease to see everything else but me. I will wait.
I may not show you how I feel now. But that is just my pride. Show me that you love me too, and I will show you how far my love can go.
Right now, I have no claim to you. Right now, all I can do is wait by the side and hope that you notice through all the seemingly innocent gestures that I do care for you. I may seem like simply a friend, but I keep hoping that you see more in me. I keep hoping that I'll be your exception. I keep hoping that you finally see that I am the love of your life, as you are mine.
When that time will be… I do not now. All I can do is wait, hope… and dream that that time comes soon. I will wait. I will not demand. I will wait. I will watch by the sidelines. I will watch the way you treat me, as if I am nothing more than a simple friend, a younger sister maybe. I will wait. I will hope. As long as I breathe, I will try my hardest not to lose hope. I will watch you fall.. Maybe for another… even as I am hoping that I am that "another". I will wait. I will wait till the time that you realize that you love me too and that I am your partner. I will wait. Because I love you, I will wait. Because I love you, I will try not to lose hope in you. I will wait.
I hope that you don’t make me wait too long. Because as I am waiting, I am hurting. I will wait for the time when you could heal the pain you caused and wipe the tears that you caused to fall. As I am writing these, I am hoping and wishing in my heart of hearts that right now, at this very moment… the time that I am waiting for is starting.
Bob Marley On How to Love A Woman
Got this from Alyx' FB. Sorry Alyx di na ako nagpaalam. Heniwei's here it goes:
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.
- Bob Marley
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.
- Bob Marley
The day na natatae ako
Gusto ko man pahabain yung post na to... testing lang actually to kung sang email ko isesend yung post ko para mapublish sa blogspot... kasi forever ko siyang nakakalimutan... kaso since natatae na talaga ako... gang dito na lang to.
Why Piscetarians, Vegetarians and other "-arians" have it easy...
If people prefer NOT to eat red meat, they are "healthy eaters". If people prefer NOT to eat any kind of meat, they're healthy eaters too. And so are "we-get-our-proteins-from-beans-people" who prefer to ONLY eat vegetables . If they're not "healthy eaters", they're people who have their own belief system… people with a cause (yeah sure, whatever!).
More often than not, hosts go out of their way to accommodate vegetarians and piscetarians so as not to offend their sensibilities. Accommodating people with allergies, I understand. But why stumble over vegetarians and piscetarians? Well, unless you knew about their preference when you invited them over, you do have to accommodate them. Otherwise, let them deal!
But what about those of us who prefer our meat! RED and WHITE!?!?! Why don't you stumble over what we want?! You know why?! Because it's easy to accommodate meat lovers. It's so easy to prepare yummy meat dishes as compared to preparing "yummy" veggie dishes! If you can call them yummy, that is! More often than not, you'll have a choice of tofu caldereta or tofu barbecue or tofu burger! YUM-OH!
For people like me, open a can of corned beef and we're good to go! Who has a can of vegetables at home anyway?! The only vegetable I have in my fridge are onions and a few cloves of garlic! Are they even veggie? I think they're spices… but there you go. How do you feed vegetarians if you only have onion, garlic, hotdog and egg in your fridge! They're lucky I have a dozen eggs in my fridge! But what about those who also don't eat egg because technically they came from poultry!?!?!
And people call me picky because I like my meat!?!?!? COME ON!!!!!!
At least vegetarians have health reasons to give if they don't like to eat meat! What about us who are not that excited with vegetables?! We can't just say… I don't like how they taste! It simply is not done that way! What do we do?!?! We smile, bite into the vegetable, and lie through our teeth how the food is actually "OKAY"! I'm sorry but that's the best I can describe vegetable dishes! They are OK!!! They're not to-die-for! They're not better-than-sex, as some cake claim… they are just OK! And most of the time… worse!
I, therefore, conclude vegetarians have it easy!!!! BUT I still want my meat!!!!
--- naisulat habang namromroblema... just in case kailangan kong makitira sa Tita kong mahilig sa gulay.
More often than not, hosts go out of their way to accommodate vegetarians and piscetarians so as not to offend their sensibilities. Accommodating people with allergies, I understand. But why stumble over vegetarians and piscetarians? Well, unless you knew about their preference when you invited them over, you do have to accommodate them. Otherwise, let them deal!
But what about those of us who prefer our meat! RED and WHITE!?!?! Why don't you stumble over what we want?! You know why?! Because it's easy to accommodate meat lovers. It's so easy to prepare yummy meat dishes as compared to preparing "yummy" veggie dishes! If you can call them yummy, that is! More often than not, you'll have a choice of tofu caldereta or tofu barbecue or tofu burger! YUM-OH!
For people like me, open a can of corned beef and we're good to go! Who has a can of vegetables at home anyway?! The only vegetable I have in my fridge are onions and a few cloves of garlic! Are they even veggie? I think they're spices… but there you go. How do you feed vegetarians if you only have onion, garlic, hotdog and egg in your fridge! They're lucky I have a dozen eggs in my fridge! But what about those who also don't eat egg because technically they came from poultry!?!?!
And people call me picky because I like my meat!?!?!? COME ON!!!!!!
At least vegetarians have health reasons to give if they don't like to eat meat! What about us who are not that excited with vegetables?! We can't just say… I don't like how they taste! It simply is not done that way! What do we do?!?! We smile, bite into the vegetable, and lie through our teeth how the food is actually "OKAY"! I'm sorry but that's the best I can describe vegetable dishes! They are OK!!! They're not to-die-for! They're not better-than-sex, as some cake claim… they are just OK! And most of the time… worse!
I, therefore, conclude vegetarians have it easy!!!! BUT I still want my meat!!!!
--- naisulat habang namromroblema... just in case kailangan kong makitira sa Tita kong mahilig sa gulay.
Don't Call Me in the Middle of the night No More…
... Don't Expect Me to be there… ito ang kanta namin ni Juphs para sa IT Operations! (Kavie wag kang Selos… sa IT Operations namin kinakanta to.. Hindi sa isa't isa! Hahaha!) Hahahaha! Hay shet… Wala naalala ko lang bigla. Di na naman ako makatulog. I remember the days na madaming nag-a-abend na jobs in the middle of the night tapos biglang tatawag yung IT operations para ipaayos yung bug at umandar na ng matino yung program!
Buti mukhang medyo past na yung moments na yun… pero siyempre ayoko muna magsalita ng tapos… mahirap na! Shet! Natatamad na ako maglaro ng PC Games pero xempre di pa rin ako natutulog. Ayoko pa matulog kasi waking up means having to go to my shitty job! Ok fine.. Not really shitty… pero I DONK LIKE WHAT I'M doing… I want to do something that I enjoy doing… o kaya kahit something which makes me feel like I'm actually doing something.. Hmmm… baka kelangan ko na talaga mag-start magtrabaho1 Hahha! Pakerpeys! Fine Fine Fine! Later, no petiks mode. Work mode na tunay na talaga to! Thiz iz it!!! Game na!!! Woohooo!!!
Buti mukhang medyo past na yung moments na yun… pero siyempre ayoko muna magsalita ng tapos… mahirap na! Shet! Natatamad na ako maglaro ng PC Games pero xempre di pa rin ako natutulog. Ayoko pa matulog kasi waking up means having to go to my shitty job! Ok fine.. Not really shitty… pero I DONK LIKE WHAT I'M doing… I want to do something that I enjoy doing… o kaya kahit something which makes me feel like I'm actually doing something.. Hmmm… baka kelangan ko na talaga mag-start magtrabaho1 Hahha! Pakerpeys! Fine Fine Fine! Later, no petiks mode. Work mode na tunay na talaga to! Thiz iz it!!! Game na!!! Woohooo!!!
Saturday, August 08, 2009
Emo moments
There are times when depression takes hold of me. I try to shake it off, but at times it simply IS hard to do. It has its claws sunk in so deep in you that when you try to pull them out, they just tend to sink in deeper… all the while seeming like it'll never let go… or at least any time soon.
You try not to think about it, but it keeps slinking it's way to the forefront.
You keep trying to push it away, but just like a bully, it just seems stronger... It pushes back and pummels you to the ground.
You try to recall another memory, one that makes you smile, or laugh, or even angry, but just like some kind of filter, it only lets the tears pass through.
You don't want it to linger, but just like an unwanted guest, it stays longer than you care for.
You want to shout... rant and rave… but you don't really know what to say. You don't really know HOW TO say it. Nor to whom.
But as I always say… POTAENA! GOOOOD VIBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!!!!
You try not to think about it, but it keeps slinking it's way to the forefront.
You keep trying to push it away, but just like a bully, it just seems stronger... It pushes back and pummels you to the ground.
You try to recall another memory, one that makes you smile, or laugh, or even angry, but just like some kind of filter, it only lets the tears pass through.
You don't want it to linger, but just like an unwanted guest, it stays longer than you care for.
You want to shout... rant and rave… but you don't really know what to say. You don't really know HOW TO say it. Nor to whom.
But as I always say… POTAENA! GOOOOD VIBEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!!!!
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