soggy brain...

... that's the condition of my gray matter right now...

... it is so overused, i don't think it has any essence left...

ARAY! OUCH! pakingshet!!! masakit na utak ko kakaisip!!! (o nagrhyme!)

for the day:
one more exam, one more project... then... another set of projects and exam to look forward to... then... SEM BREAK!!! yeah!!!

I hope time flies even if i'm not having fun...

back to school.. back to hell...

the weekend is gone...

the new week is here...

back to our torMENTORs...

back to learning and unlearning...

back with classmates, blockmates, and teammates...

pressure (not FORCE over AREA, btw...), again, is pushing our minds to the edge of insanity...

frustration builds up...

longing for the near-yet-so-far 2 weeks ahead...

singing... "wake me up when the semester ends..."

messes up own mind by panicking with or without reason a few hours before the deadline of a requirement...

calms down... after each requirement is met... (back to statement above... the cycle goes on...)

dragging the names of useless/inefficient/abnormal/alien teachers through the mud or vomit or piss or whatever becomes convenient to make one feel better...

swearing/cursing, again, becomes our outlet...

F*CK! DIE B*RNS DIE!

quote 3...

Always dream and shoot higher than you know you can do. Don't bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself.
-William Faulkner

sobrang true!!! if you compare yourself to others, the only thing you'll accomplish is frustrate yourself... i won't be a hypocrite and say that i don't compare myself to others... of course, there are times that i do, sometimes its really difficult not to. How would I know that frustration is the only thing you'll get if Ihaven't done it myself, right?

Sometimes, I just tend to forget to remind myself not to look on others... that's the time when I attempt to be better than them... then the frustration and envy sets in... saka ko lang naaalala na mali na naman ung ginagawa ko...

Pero gaya nga ng sabi nila... TAO lang!!! nakakalimot at nagkakamali...

Buti na lang the frustration doesn't get to me, to the point na di ko na kayang magcope with the situation that I'm in...
Buti na lang at di ako PRANING with a capital P R A N I N G.... buti na lang praning lang ako with small letters (wehehe...)


Thank God for 2nd, 3rd, 4th... and nth chances...

quote 2...

You will stay young as long as you learn, form new habits and don't mind being contradicted.
-Marie von Ebner-Eschenbach

hmmm... kaya siguro "young" pa rin ako hanggang ngayon... wehehe...

quote for the day

got this idea from another blog... since I'm subscribing to a "quote for the day" mailing group (Arcamax) and since I also delete these mails immediately after reading them, unless I find a quote which I can relate to... might as well write this quotes down... here goes...

I think all great innovations are built on rejections.
-Louise Nevelson

rubbing shoulders with doctors...

note: wrote this in my multiply account first... kinopy paste ko na lang kasi gusto ko rin ikwento dito... this was edited to fit the date now, kasi sinulat ko to kahapon :D


nasa PICC kami kahapon ng hapon to attend the oath-taking of my cousin, isa siya sa 1000+ PMA (Phil Med Assoc) board passers... in short... doctor na siya...

after the event, binigay na sa mga newly inducted doctors ung papers nila sa kanila... so ayun... ang mga doktor... tila typical pa rin na mga estudyante na nakapila para sa tiket ng isang UAAP game... kaibahan lang, mga papeles nila ang pinipilahan nila... and as usual... ang gulo ng pila... maraming nagcocongratulate sa isa't isa.. kakamustahan.. etc.. basta parang graduation rin yung oath taking event... andun pa rin ang number one supporters ng bawat nilalang.. ang mga dakilang parents... and of course.. picture-taking here.. picture-taking there... picture-taking everywhere... hehehehe..

natatawa nga ako while I was making my way across the audi...eh di ba nga ang dami daming nakakalat na doktor? tapos sobrang sikip sa harap ng audi... so, while I was making my excuses, isip-isip ko... aba! big time ako! im rubbing shoulders with doctors... LITERALLY!

newei...grabe.. shocking... most of the newly inducted doctors were so young... basta karamihan sa mga nakita ko, mga mid 20s... mas matanda lang sa akin ng ilang taon... hehehe naiisip ko kasi parati sa mga doctors, ung tipong ka-edad na ng tatay at nanay ko...

nyahahaha!!! damn! tumatanda na nga ata talaga ako... sabagay kung iisipin ko nga naman meron akong kaklase (kajamming ko nung grade 3... hehehe way back in '93) na dalawa na ang anak (pakingshet!) at ung highschool classmate ko naman na isa, expecting na next month... (takte!)...

pero... immature pa rin talaga ako... bakit kasi?! gragrad na ako FOR GOOD this coming march (SANA!) pero di ko lam if im ready to face what's beyond college life... syete!!! ayoko rin naman magmasteral (MUNA)... dapat siguro nag-doctor na lang ako para kunyari no choice... hehehe... tanong... do I have what it takes? hehhe ok too late... am graduating next march... so... let's see what happens... *nginig* *nginig* syeteeeeeeeeeee!!!! AYOKO PA GRUMADUATE!!! pero... AYOKO NA RIN MAG-ARAL!!!!

maturity!!! magpakita ka sa akin! i need you!!! and i need you now!!! when o when ka ba magpapakita sa akin!?!

i survived the week with a minute to spare...

SUPPOSEDLY, our long test should have been long finished this morning(as in YESTERDAY morning)... we studied for it last (last) night till around 0230H... then we woke up as EARLY as 0500H to be able to go to school early and continue studying there with the help of our other classmates... our exam was scheduled at 0800H...

On our way to school... around 0700H... a phone rings... LO AND BEHOLD! our exam wasn't to be an in-class exam! instead we have to download the questions and pass our answers before 1200MN... This was fine with us... Even if we also had another laboratory report due at 1630H, which we haven't started answering yet... still, that was fine....

Around 1300H, I was partially through with the 3rd question... I decided to stop answering the exam to start on my laboratory report...

Around 1600H, I was able to pass my lab report... Since I only had 3 and a half questions left to answer... which were decidedly easy since we already answered some problems in our book and 2 of the questions were the same questions which we answered... and since I had training... and since the deadline of the exam was still a way off from 4PM... I decided to stop answering the exam to train and just answer it later...

I WAS HAPPY while I was training... I can already see the night ahead of me... with me sleeping through it... I assumed I would be done by 2100H... and boy... was I wrong... BIG TIME! (obviously!)

BY 1900H... I wasn't even done encoding the answers for problem 3 yet (F*cking equations!)... By 2000H I decided to write the answer to problems 4-6 in longhand and just scan the paper... BY 2300H... I was done... only thing left to do was...

ATTACH the files... and send the mail...

AROUND 2315H... I was attaching my files when...

I GOT disconnected!!!!! I decided to turn off the lap top so that when I turn it back on, it would be faster... (the laptop was switched On since 1800H)...

Around 2330H.. the F*ucking network was messed up and wouldn't connect me... I tried till...
around 2350H... alleluia! I was connected!!!!

since the total size of the files was around 1.8MB and my speed connection was 54.6KB which was not consistent!... I was able to send my files at exactly 12:06AM using my Gmail account...

Around 12:08 AM... my long test was acknowledged by our tchr in my Gmail account...

Around 12:10AM... I checked my Yahoo account... I got a message with the subject below from our teacher...

Submission to LE3 is now closed - Time Stamp 12:07am

damn! just 1 more minute... and i wouldn't be enumerating these things now...
just 1 more minute and I would be cursing my tchr to hell and back... (hehhe kala mo di ko ginagawa even without provocation...) o well... pasalamat siya... kundi... naku! wala.. di ko rin alam gagawin ko... iiyak siguro ako! naku palsamat talaga siya!

a minute to spare for my week... tomorrow doesn't count... because tomorrow... I SLEEP!

bonne nuit!