family lines, family ties...

hehehehe ito usually lines ng pamilya namin:

Papa: "Gamitin kasi ang mata pag naghahanap...hindi yung bibig"
(since parati niyang namimisplace yung mga susi niya, kami papahanapin niya tapos pag siya ang nakakita kasi naalala na niya kung san niya linagay o kaya dahil sa simpleng TSAMBA... yan ang sasabihin niya... hahay... LIFE!)

Mama: "Anak, paglimpyo balay kay ti-abot kami ni {insert name here}, makaarawod! siguraduha nga malimpyo it CR!
(Mama: "Anak, maglinis ka ng bahay kasi darating kami ni {insert name here}, nakakahiya! Siguraduhin mong malinis yung CR! -- gaya ng sabi ko noon pa... tamad ako maglinis ng bahay kaya parating mukhang dinaanan ng bagyo ang bahay ko...)

Aubrey: "Pasalamat ka magurang ka ngan puto ako! kun ako la naging magurang gin-ungayan ta na ikaw!"
(Aubrey: "Pasalamat ka panganay ka at bunso ako! Kung ako naging panganay, pinatulan na kita! -- wow! i'm scared.... hehehe)

AKO: "hirap maging maganda...." (honest talaga ako since bata pa ako.. hahahaha)

o kaya ay...

AKO: "mag-singer na lang kaya ako..." (napansin ko kasi maganda yung boses ko... hahahaha)

i love juddah paolo!!!

hehehe... ever since the coke days... hahay... kaya lang vegetarian siya...

sabagay... at least pag kasama ko siya may kakain ng mga gulay ko... hehehe... as if!!!

juddah! astig ka mehn!

to luigi...

just in case mahanap mo to... at gaguhin mo ako with your comments...

know this...

HUHUNTINGIN KITA!!! sabi nga ni FPJ... isang bala ka lang!!! pero dadagdagan ko pa ng marami tapos dudurugin kita tapos ipapakain ko laman loob mo sa aso!!!

my grad.. the unfortunate events...

hehehehe.. sa kakadrama ko last time I posted.. I forgot to mention some unmentionables.. nyehehehe.. just trying to play with words.. anywayyyyy.

first blooper...
pag-akyat sa stage, when we get our fake diplomas and shake the hand of the school's president aka Fr. Nebres... meron nakaset kung anong kamay yung pangkuha ng diploma and which hand shakes Fr. Nebres' hand... dapat ATA, I'm still confused hanggang ngayon, yung right hand will get the diploma then the left shakes hand with Fr. Nebres...

ang mali ko... I used the wrong hand to get the diploma... so habang kinukuha ko yung diploma.. ayaw bitawan ni Fr. Ben (aka Nebres)... hehehehe buti na lang di ako dense at hindi ko hinatak yung fake diploma from his hand... hehe napangiti na lang ako nang abot tenga when I corrected my mistake.. hehehe... si Fr. Ben naman parang natatawa na rin... pero.. ayun natapus na rin ang bigayan ng diploma ordeal...


second blooper...
sa ateneo, when you graduate, you have a cord which represents the course na tinapos mo... in our first grad... we had a yellow cord with a medallion where the school's coat of arms is engraved... so last mar 24, since 2 kurso ang natapos namin, we had the yellow cord from the last grad and the orange cord for this grad...

so being double majors... may angas factor rin naman kami kahit papano... hehehe kahit bano ako... kahit papano pde pa rin ako mag-angas paminsan minsan... siguro yun na ang kapalit ng pagdudugo ng utak sa 5 taon kong pag-aaral...

newei, so the plan was, like what the last batch did, itataas namin yung dalawang medallion namin when we bow.... kaya lang dahil sa kaartehan ng kung sino mang nilalang... biglang change of plans during the practice... instead of bowing, the girls were supposed to curtsy.. what the hell!!!!!! eh kung mangudngud ako dun!!! at malaglag sa hagdanan!!!! ang sakit na nga ng paa ko dahil sa heels me pacurtsy curtsy pang nalalaman... gatas!!!! (translate to spanish)... and by the way.. we were warned that if ever we did trip or fall on our faces.. we should SLIP/TRIP/FALL WITH DIGNITY.. how the hell do you manage that?! do we plan ahead of time na.. hey i'm going to fall with dignity when I go down the stage later... di naman kami psychic kasi no!

anyway... I digress... back to topic... so, since we already planned to lift the medallions (orange cord -- right hand, yellow cord -- left hand... we, my classmates and moi, planned that before we went up the stage) up to show to the entire ATENEO society that "HEY I'VE GOT TWO MEDALLIONS!!! do you know what this means? this means my brain bled for 2 degrees!!! beat that!" which was why I also had to prepare how I would lift those medallions, with the assigned hands, with the fake diploma in one of my hands while trying to curtsy without falling flat on my arse or, worse, on my face!

so with that in mind... I did the first blooper as told above, then went to the place marked with X where people were supposed to curtsy/bow... kaya lang.. dahil may diploma na nga akong hawak hawak I fumbled with the medallions while thinking.. SYET! I need to do this right!!! kelangan ko maitaas at maipakita ang dalawang cords sa mga tao kahit anong mangyari(as if hindi kasi nakikita.. hehe)... KELANGAN KO MAKAPAG-ANGAS!!! so ayun... I lifted the two medallions, I forgot kung tama ba yung kamay na pinangtaas ko... and then... I BOWED!

hehehe kala niyo natapilok ako no!!!! hindi naman ako ganun kamalas... so I thought ok... easy lang.. easy... walang nakapansin nun.. ok lang yun...

when I went down the stage and passed my classmates.. they were grinning at me like lunatics... "DI KA NAG-CURTSY!!!"

FINALLY

hahay... no big deal...

it's over... graduated for the last time as an undergrad... at last... namamanhid pa ako...

di ko lam kung gusto kong umiyak or what...

i know i'm going to miss a lot of people... memories... events... kagaguhan.. etc...

i don't want to think about it too much...

just saw some pics of my last game for the Ateneo Softball Team... di ako umiyak pero leche ang sakit!!!! ok naiiyak na ako just thinking about it... just knowing na I won't be training with the team and with my coaches for the coming MWFs masakit ha!!! gaya ng isang sugat na di mo dapat kinakalikot... ayoko na rin muna pagisipan ang pagpapaalam sa mga taong nakilala ko NOONG college ako... siguro sa susunod na... siguro kapag handa na akong umiyak... o siguro kapag alam kong di na ako maiiyak at alam kong mapapangiti na lamang ako ng mga alaala.. siguro saka na lamang... pag ganun na...

marching in March 24...

yep! mar 24 it is... the final graduation day for me that is... i mean... final graduation day as an undergrad... i'm not yet sure if i'm going to pursue further studies somewhere in the near or even very far future...

anywayyyyyy.... i'm not as excited as I was for my Physics grad, that was my first grad after all... since I've marched already last year, I also know the necessary preparations for this kind of event... we'll it's easier for guys... not only do they get to wear slacks and not pressured to choose and/or buy a dress which is not too long nor too high-necked but they also don't get to wear heels!!! (we'll at least girls don't have to be circumcised... but we get to bear children! and we also have our monthly visitor!!! life really isn't fair...) AND it's not necessary for them to have their hair and make up done!!! so they also don't have to worry that their make up is melting on their faces making them look like some kind of freak... no... they don't get to experience all that.... only GIRLS do!

not only are dresses, heels, and make up uncomfortable... they also mean... MONEY... LOTS OF MONEY!

In a joking manner, I asked Mama if it's Ok if I don't march in this graduation since we've been through this last year... she was laughing while I was asking her and suddenly... her face dropped... and said.. "That's your choice... at least less gastos..."

YEAH RIGHT! my choice my ass... it was written all over her face that she wanted me to march again... despite all the gastos... what's with mothers and graduations anyway? its not as if may award ako kahit man lang NOT HONORABLE MENTION... and even that award I have to share with a lot of other people...

hahay... since mabait akong anak... hahahahahahah!!!! sige na nga magmamartsa ako... sana lang di ako matapilok sa stage dahil sa lecheng heels na yan... oo nga pala.. speaking of heels... makabili nga ng band-aid...

usapang puso... nax!!!!!

naisip ko lang habang nakahiga ako... with my ipod on... trying to sleep... while my witch of a sister is watching a movie I rented but haven't watched yet because I was reserving it for later... even though she knows that I hate it when she watches a movie which I haven't watched yet while I'm still awake and in the same room... i'll stop... before I say anything which I might regret later when she, eventually, decides to wash the dishes because of my pestering...

anyway... yup... that was just an intro to my state of mind while I'm writing this... obviously i'm pissed... anyway... AGAIN...

I couldn't help but think about LOOOOVVVVVEEEE while I was trying to sleep moments earlier... (di ko na itinuloy muna ang attempt na matulog kasi napapaisip lang ako... kaya ito sinusulat ko na lang) bakit? because....
(1) the movie that my sister is watching is a romantic comedy which I'm trying not to watch and listen to because I want to watch it later... so
(2) i turn on the ipod and listen via earphones to block the movie sounds... kaya lang, it plays various kinds of love songs... i always shuffle the playlist to avoid favoritism... hehehe yeah i know... im crazy...

SO... i can't help but think... hey! I've never been in love...

well, yeah I love my friends and my family... I love them so much that the idea of them not being around hurts so much, it brings tears to my eyes (literal yan)... but I've never ever been romantically IN love... i've had crushes... not simply crushes... major crushes... oh yeah, not just major crushes... CHIEF of STAFF crushes even... but I've never had that butterfly-in-the-stomach feeling that most people describe love to be...

I just realized that I've never felt it and I'm not even looking for it... I'm not even envious of the people who've already had it... hehehe... well.. how can you be envious of having a feeling which brings a person so much pain... HELLO!!! im not a masochist.. yeah I like to cry... SOMETIMES... but it's just because it's an outlet for me... not because I like PAIN!

yeah yeah! people in love or those who have been in love would say... you don't know what you're missing... It's the most wondrous feeling yada yada yada... but is that feeling worth it when time and again I'd be listening to friends crying all about a broken heart... all about how it hurts because their feelings are not reciprocated... about how it hurts so much because even if they have feelings for each other, it's just not the right moment or it's just not meant to be or whatever...

why would anyone want to waste their energy thinking about lost love... or thinking about love that wasn't even lost because it wasn't given in the first place... why do people cry so much about it? yeah they eventually move on, but they waste so much of their time crying over it, I don't want to say its pathetic, but it kind of is... crying over it for about... hmmm.. siguro a month or two is reasonable... I THINK... but some people really just don't know when to stop! I've HEARD, it takes a year or two for some people to get over someone... ewan di ko maimagine... medyo may pagkamakitid ang utak ko sa usapang ganito... di ko lang kasi lubos maisip na di kinakaya ng ibang tao ang mag let go kahit alam na nilang nasasaktan na sila... leche... pag sinabing LET GO! LET GO na! buti pang iba na lang pagkaabalahan mo di ba! sayang lang sa oras, luha, at energy yung ganun na pagmumukmok.... ewan...

tama na... kung anu-ano na sinusulat ko na di ko napagiisipan... inaantok na ako..

hay naku.. basta gudluck na lang sa mga taong in love at sa mga taong nangangarap ma-in love... basta ako di ko hahanapin... kung dumating sa akin eh darating.. eh kung hindi... eh di hindi... sabi nga nila... I don't know what I'm missing... eh sa kung di ko pa naman nararamdaman at napanghahawakan... walang rason para panghinayangan ko...

living well is the best revenge...

I read this conversation in a Korean movie (subtitle), S-Diary. They were talking about getting back at people who hurt you... not verbatim pala to...

Person1: Living well is the best revenge....
(isip ko: oo nga naman...)

Person2: People just say that to console themselves. In the first place, our goal in life should be to live well no matter what...
(isip ko: TUMPAK!!!)

so what should we do to those people who hurt us? to those people who look down on us? should it be enough for us to let them see that we are having the best that life could offer us? tama na nga bang ingudngud natin sa pagmumukha nila na kaya rin natin makipagtagisan ng galing with the best of them? tama na bang ipamukha natin sa kanila na kaya nating higitan ang kung ano mang mababang pagtingin nila sa atin? tama na nga ba yun?

oo masarap nga makipagpisikalan sa mga taong mababa ang tingin sa atin.. pero pagkatapos nating mabigyan ng black eye at pasa ang mga taong ganun...? ano na ngayon? hmmmm...

kung ako tatanungin.... pagkatapos nun, ano na? eh di tuloy ang buhay at mas masaya... hehehehe... hay kung ganun lang sana kadali ano? hahay.. sabi nga nila... di lahat ng bagay pede mong makamit...


kaya... LET US ALL LIVE WELL... next time na natin isipin pano natin masasapak yung mga taong yun... darating rin tayo diyan... eventually... antay na lang tayo ng pagkakataon... Good things come to those who wait...

NAKS! parang puno ng kasabihan tong post na to ah... hehehe.. yan ang nagagawa kapag bored na...

bad news... good news...

bad news muna...

di ako pumasa sa second interview ng Toshiba...

good news naman...

wala na akong problema sa schl... clearance na lang... YEHEY!!!!! hehehe labo...pero good news pa rin yun! sabi nga nila be thankful sa kung anong meron ka... o well... at least makakapagpahinga ako kahit papano... hehehe... teka sour graping ba to... hindi naman... oo nakakapanghinayang di ako nakapasa pero di naman ako sad... di naman ako asar or anything... i'm cool... hehehe o ha! ingles pa yuN!

sa ngayon... nagbabasa ako ng bagong libro ni Bob Ong... Stainless Longganisa... at siyempre nag-aabang ng mga pinapanood kung teleserye sa TV... o ha! nakakapanood na ako ulit ng mga series series na yan... namely: Sa Piling Mo (ABS-CBN), Kim Sam Soon (GMA), at siyempre... and walang kamatayang Pinoy Big Brother Celebrity Edition (ABS-CBN)... hehehe

OO na! jologs na kung jologs! eh sa gusto ko eh! walang pakialaman..

hay... grabe na ito.. it's been so long since nakapag-abang ako ng telenovela (ngayon teleserye na siya.. meron pang telepantasya pero di pa ako naaakit na mag-abang ng isa sa mga ganun..)

hay sana makahanap ako ng trabaho na gusto ko na ok ang bayad... hehe yung hindi naman ako kakain ng asin... hehe... sana makakuha ako ng TRABAHO!!!!!


pasensiya pala sa mga modeling agency at mga talent scouts... wala po ako balak magmodel o magartista o kaya naman ay maging singer... kahit maraming nagiinsist sa akin na yun na lang na mga nabanggit ang maging career ko... sorry talaga... bwehehehehehehehehehe


siya tama na panaginip maaga pa... mamaya ulit... unless antukin na ako at tamarin magsulat..

mga iniisip ko sa oras na to...

1) YEHEY! TAPOS NA DEFENSE NAMIN!!! pero may documentation pang kelangang ayusin saka poster... syete...

2) asan na kaya yung DMM na yun!!!!???!!! wala akong pambayad sa bago... nakakahiya sa mga kagrupo ko damay sila of ever... san na kasi yun!!!!???!!!!

3)hehehehe... *enigmatic grin* (nax may enigmatic pa akong nalalaman... hehehe walang pakialaman...) *enigmatic grin* ulit!

4)inaantok ako pero kelangan ko pa ayusin ung docu...

5) kelangan ko ng massage!!!!

6) ano pa nga ba ang iniisip ko? gusto ko lang magtype kaya ko sinusulat tong number 6... wala lang trip lang...

7) sana pumasa ako sa second interview ng toshiba... hehehe... kahit maka-apak man lang ako ng Japan ng libre ok na ako....

8) pero siyempre mas ok kung pumasa ako pati yung 3rd interview at mahire ng Toshiba...

9)... hindi lang pala mas ok... OK na OK!

10) sana ipagdasal ako ng mga kakilala ko na pumasa ako...

11) Diyos ko, sana pumasa ako... kaya ko sinusulat to sa halip na i-pray na lang para may reminder ako (well ipinagprapray ko to habang sinusulat ko) ... just in case mag-promise ako ng something sa yo para lang pumasa sa exam (yung lahat ng exam ng Toshiba, in short ma-hire ng Toshiba... heheh buti na ang specific di ba! mahirap na pumasa nga ako biglang di naman ako na-hire...).... teka... better yet... ito na lang: "sana pumasa ako sa mga exam at ma-hire ako ng Toshiba... at matuloy yung pagwork ko for Toshiba..." hehehe haaaaaaaaayyyyy Diyos ko... di ko pa alam anong pde kong ipromise kasi baka pag binigay niyo sa akin yung panalangin ko... di ko naman matupad ung promise ko... pero Lord... gusto ko talaga mangyari yung sinabi ko sa taas... alam mo na yun... kaw na bahala... kaw naman may alam what's best for me... sige ito na lang.... I promise to read the Bible every night... even kahit isang verse lang... pero pag may time talaga ako... least na yung isang chapter... THANK YOU... THANK YOU... THANK YOU!!!! Even if I don't get the job, I'll try to keep this promise kasi I've been avoiding talking to you for the longest time... This is the least I can do for you for all the things you've given me and all the things that you've taught me... SALAMAT talaga Gino-o nga di mo ako ginpapabay-an... Salamat ha ngatanan... di na ako gino-o ma-aro hin pasaylo kay maaram ako nga papasaylo-an mo man ako hit ak mga sala ngan bangin liwat pag-inutro utrohon ko la tak mga sala... Subukan ko na lang talaga i-avoid kung ano man yung temptations na naeencounter ko... basta Gino-o... salamat... kaw na Bahala... basta I'll try my best na lang... I pray for all these things in the name of Jesus Christ, my personal Saviour. Amen.


12) i have a smile on my face ( di na enigmatic hehehe) pero i feel a bit lighthearted... pero inaantok pa rin.... kaya mabuti pa... itigil ko na to at magsimula na magwork...

BABUSH!

No Rain

matagal ko nang pinapakinggan ang kantang to... gusto ko kasi yung melody niya... nakikisabay pa nga ako minsan sa pagkanta pero ni minsan di ko talaga lubos na inintindi yung sinasabi nito...

habang nagproprocrastinate ako kanina at tumitingin tingin sa mga lyrics sa tristancafe, nakita ko yung lyrics nito... saka ko lang narealize na THIS IS MY SONG! ( NAX drama! ) parang pang-asar rin sa akin kasi yung thesis ko ngayon has something to do with rain... at dahil NO RAIN kaming narecord.. medyo, pero di naman gaano, di ganun ka-satisfying ang results... so you see... di lang siya sa aking personal na pananaw sa dakilang buhay ko nag-aapply kundi pati na rin sa lecheng academic life ko, title-wise anyway... very nice...

NO RAIN
Blind Melon

All I can say is that my life
is pretty plain
I like watchin the puddles gather rain
and all I can do is just
pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view
but its not sane, its not sane

I just want someone to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

and I don't understand why I sleep all day
and I start to complain that theres no rain
and all I can do is read a book to stay awake
It rips my life away but its a great escape
escape, escape

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
You don't like my point of view
Ya think that I'm insane
It's not sane, it's not sane

I just want someone to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

coffee break

nyehehehe....

oo kape muna bago gumawa para di ako inaantok...

hanggang thursday na lang prob ka sa acads kaya kelangan tapusin ko na tong lecheng to...

then... saka ko na proproblemahin ang mga hold order ko... hehehehe...

syet! parang ang iresponsable ko naman ngayong sem...

hmmmm.... ok, just in case a prospective employer reads this.... i'll stop... don't wanna scare them off.... kawawa naman sila if they don't hire me... hay... big big mistake... hahaha as if... anywaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy....

HAY siya! nag dday dreaming na naman ako syete... back to work... nguya na lang ng ice para di antukin...

sarap ng amoy na kape! kakaadik!


p.s. nakakatamad gumawa ng documentation!!! pero mas nakakatamad magprogram... lalo na kung bano ka sa programming na gaya ko!